She loved the Siletz River at Coyote Rock in Lincoln City. She kept saying that she wants to go back to her river.
On Saturday the 30th of August at 1:00 pm we will be taking her back to the river she loved by scattering her ashes with loved ones around her.
Check back soon for videos of the ceremonies.
A service for Teresa that will truly be “A Celebration Of Life” will be held on this Sunday the 24th Of August at 2:00pm. All are welcome that knew Teresa and want to share this time with stories about her, music she loved and fellowship with others that cared so much for her. Teresa body may not be there with us but she will be with us in spirit. The service will be held at the home of Eric and Susie Bell at 5307 SW 34th Place Portland Oregon 97239. That is in the area of Beaverton-Hillsdale Hwy at Dosch Rd. Please bring something to eat, snack or whatever you feel like.
I want you to know that we are mourning the lost of her but celebrating her union with our Lord Jesus Christ. Teresa ashes will be scattered on Saturday the 30th on the Siletz River at Coyote Rock. If you know her or read the blog you know how special this place is to her, all she said is that she wished she could be back at her river, you will honey.
Daniel
Lot’s of loved ones around and Kelli and I right next to her, Teresa passed away at 3:30pm. I know your in that new body, in his Kingdom now and the Angels are rejoicing. We love you baby, Daniel.
I can’t believe that it’s been 430 days, it feels more like thousands. Teresa said to the paramedic when they came to the house “I’m done”. She is such a fighter but she knows that she lost the battle.
Things this morning are the same as yesterday but the doctors said that they don’t think she will improve because she gets no nutrition and has no white blood cells to fight the infection. They tried to see how she did without the ventilator and it didn’t go well. I have just finished talking to the team of doctors and we are going to wait until tomorrow {because of family flying in). Some time tomorrow we are going to remove the ventilator, they will make her comfortable, but they don’t expect her to live very long without it and expect her to pass away within a couple of hours. I don’t want to drag this out anymore, she has suffered enough. If for some reason she did survive they said she would have no more than a few weeks.
Last night I went home to be with my children and I talked to them one at a time. I told them how she would look with the tubes and all. I told them that there is no wrong choice and if they wanted to go see mom. I explained that this would be a goodbye. Brandi doesn’t want to see her, she made a recording for her and a giant card. Jaymi and Robbie want to see her again, Robbie was very upset when I explained that Mommy was going to die and I had to hold him for a long time. The children are tired to, they told me they are sick of this cancer thing, they have no friends or fun anymore. I’m going to change that.
For those of you that know Teresa and her strong faith, you know that she has no problem knowing where she is going. Jesus at this very moment is holding her and comforting her. In a conversation her and I had a couple of weeks ago she said that she was upset that she is leaving me and the kids and how much we need her. I told her I understand and not to worry because you know how good of a cook you helped make me. That got her to laugh.
Pray for all of us and for Teresa to have peace in her last moments.
God Bless you all.
Daniel
I’m sorry for a bit of a rant on the last post, it’s just so overwhelming.
Teresa’s body is still fighting the infection. They tried to see if she could breath on her own and she wasn’t ready yet. They will evaluate each day to see if they can remove the ventilator. They think there is a chance she might beat this infection, it just takes time for the antibiotics to work.
If thinks get worse the ventilator will be removed while she is still consciouses and we can talk to her, she would be made comfortable and it would take a matter of a few precious hours.
The radiation oncologist said that after the ventilator is off he wants to do radiation a couple of times on a tumor that might cause some complications. No big efforts to try and destroy the cancer tumors.
Thank you for the emails, comments and prayers.
Daniel
The doctors told me that Teresa does have a bacterial infection that has gotten into her blood stream and caused pneumonia. The antibiotics are working and she has improved since yesterday. In a few hours they are going to see if they can take her off the ventilator and let her breath on her own. I have let them know that if she goes into respiratory arrest that I don’t want them to help her breath again. If they take her off it and she’s supposed to breath on her own and for some reason she can’t, it’s meant to be. That is what Teresa would want.
So she could pull through this and come home. I have to tell you that I’m overwhelmed and feeling quite alone. My mind is racing from one thing to another. The Oncologist are talking and this afternoon will help us decide if Teresa should continue any treatment for the cancer. Children’s hospital is having someone come talk to me about talking to the children. I need to finish a tile job for my landlord (who are great!) . I need to move a week from Saturday, and even with that I can’t take Teresa home to our house because of the stairs. If things don’t go well who do I call for funeral arrangements, who do I pay for that too? This is to much and maybe I’m writing this to let those know who think I failed Teresa know that I’m tired too and I’ve done what I can for her. All the decisions I’ve made is in the best interest of her and my children. I don’t know what else I could have done, I’ve done my best, I guess it wasn’t good enough.
Daniel
I wanted to let you all know the latest information. Teresa is on a ventilator and sedated in ICU. They believe that she is battling an infection and are giving her broad scope antibiotics to fight it. It is a battle between the infection and antibiotics and we have to wait and see who will win. By tomorrow they will have cultures done and we might know exactly what it is and treat it accordingly.
Tonight she will have CT scan and possibly a radiation treatment, I will be by her side and will keep everyone updated. Thankyou for the prayers and well wishes.
Daniel
I am taking a moment while waiting and this is the best way to contact so many people. Teresa is in ICU at OHSU with what looks like an infection or pnemonia. She is being put on a ventilator now to stabilize her. As of the writing of this we don’t know for sure whats wrong and which way this is going to go. Please keep us all in your prayers.
Daniel
By Daniel McNabb
I want to share with you what has transpired since I left the post yesterday that Teresa was going to the hospital. Let me first say that I have never seen her in such pain, even with the pain medications she takes it was not near enough. We had to call 911 and get the fireman and paramedics to get her down the stairs in a stretcher because she couldn’t walk.
Then the long waiting began at the hospital, nothing goes quick there. We do get VIP treatment because of the cancer and never have to wait in the waiting room, that’s about as far as it goes. Kelli took her little brother and sisters home with her at 10pm, thank you God, and Kelli. A 1 hour wait for pain med’s, 3 hour wait for CT scan, 6 hour wait for ultrasound, wow, it’s 3am. Doctor told us the good news, no fracture, no bleeding or anything else causing the pain. Wait, did I say good news? Then what is causing all of this pain?
They told us that they couldn’t do anything and it’s probably the cancer and that we could stay in the bed till morning. I went home to get Teresa some clothes, medications and I got 2 hours of sleep. I got back at the hospital to see Teresa in the same amount of pain that she had been in for the last 16 hours. She said that even her other parts of the body hurt now. A doctor came in and I asked her what the liquid pain med that they where giving her equaled in Morphine. “Oh” the doctor said proudly, “It’s 10 times the strength of 1mg of Morphine.” “And how much and often have you been giving her this?” I asked. “1 dose per hour” she stated. So I did the math quickly in my head, they are giving her the equal of 10mg of Morphine per hour so that would be 120mg for 12 hours. AAAGGGGGHHHH, no wonder she’s in so much pain! That is half of the dose she takes just to control the regular pain. All of her medications and the dosages are on the computer monitor in the room, no excuses, they dropped the ball.
I then laid out all her medications that I brought from home on the stand next to the hospital bed and started dispersing them to Teresa. She got dressed and I wheeled her out of the room and the hospital, both of us exhausted and Teresa still suffering. We called Dennis and Leenie and they met us at the house to help me get Teresa up the stairs in the wheelchair. Thank you brother and sister for doing that, without you we couldn’t have gotten her into the house.
Here’s the kicker, yesterday during the day Teresa was getting an extra 60mg of Morphine IR every couple of hours for breakthrough pain, it wasn’t working. This morning in the er room I gave her just a little extra of the Morphine CR, within an hour of that she wasn’t feeling as much pain. Later in the day I went to give her the afternoon medications and when I wrote them down I realized something. I had not given her anymore medications for pain since the morning and no breakthrough Morphine. She felt much better and the pain in the hip and leg were gone.
God does answer prayers. All of you that woke up this morning and got your rss or email notice that I posted about Teresa going to the hospital started to pray. Then you told others to pray for her and God answered. Thank you to all of you that prayed for her today, you touched someones life. God Bless.
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