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I have a problem.  I have been fighting with myself.  Fighting with the devil who keeps trying to mess with my head.  And getting Poked in the chest by the Holy Spirit who is trying to teach me.  It’s been an interesting week of flip-flopping.  Lol  Thank you for being patient.

Here is my problem in a nut shell:  I cannot stop digging through the Bible.  I am learning so much.  I am devouring the Word. I want to write about what I find, what I learn.  But it has changed this site.  I am no longer writing about being a mother with cancer.   Lol     In my mind, the cancer has taken a back seat.  It is more important that I keep digging and searching for the Words and stories and history that has been hidden in plain site my whole life.  The cancer can no longer be the defining subject of my everyday.  It is now just an annoyance, a nuisance that interrupts my study.

However, every time I find myself pouring out what I have learned I worry that I am out of line. Who am I to say this?   Or I feel that I can’t just say “whatever” when I promised I would write “this”.   So I don’t post until I have something all figured out . . .   It’s a lot harder than it used to be.

For instance. . . This week I dug out some very cool things about the Holy Spirit and the Gifts associated.  I wrote what was really an article on what I found out and then I tried to turn it into a post . . . Lol    I asked Dan to read it and he said,  “Ah . . . Why don’t you write more about us?” “Like what? I sat on the couch all day reading the Word, searching the internet for commentary. . . Watching you working on our other sites . . .  Is there enough to make a whole post?”  So I didn’t post it. . .

In order to get back to the flippant, funny everyday what’s-going-on-with-my life kind of blogging that I started back in  June last year, I need to have another place to work out the questions I have.  I am going to still write here.  But I’m going to use one of the other web sites that Dan and I have to write as well. I’ll let you know where . . . when I figure that out.  It will be like writing about Disney on my first trip through the Magic Kingdom.  Only the Magic Kingdom I am experiencing was not created by Walt.

Speaking of other sites . . . I have asked for prayers for our finances. I haven’t talked much more than that about what we are doing in the background.  It’s a tough time for most people here in Florida.  There is a lack of traditional “work.”  If you have a job in construction here, you are fortunate.  Dan and I have been making money where we can.  We take jobs as we find them.  Also Dan has been studying how people make money with websites, and he has been building one site after another.  It’s a lot of work.  AND it takes time to develop.  The original plan was to develop one after another until we have 50+ sites each making $50 to $100 a month in ad money.  However, God led us to some Christian site names and we have been concentrating on them.  We feel like we are going in the right direction.   It just takes time.

Meanwhile, we are having a yard sale this weekend.  I am a fan of yard sales when they are in other people’s yard!  But the timing is right to get this one done. We had donated items that have been stored for us since we arrived here in Florida and the time is up on the storage.  Next weekend is time again for Chemo and then another recovery period.  So, this weekend is the best time. (Not to mention, we could use the money.)

Meanwhile, I am doing fine.  I get a little tired, but I will gain back my strength once this is behind me.  Your prayers have gotten us this far. Please don’t stop praying for me.  I am so Blessed.  My family’s Blessed.  There is no other explanation for my progress- it’s your prayers.

Thank you.