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I can’t believe that it’s been 430 days, it feels more like thousands. Teresa said to the paramedic when they came to the house “I’m done”. She is such a fighter but she knows that she lost the battle.

Things this morning are the same as yesterday but the doctors said that they don’t think she will improve because she gets no nutrition and has no white blood cells to fight the infection. They tried to see how she did without the ventilator and it didn’t go well. I have just finished talking to the team of doctors and we are going to wait until tomorrow {because of family flying in). Some time tomorrow we are going to remove the ventilator, they will make her comfortable, but they don’t expect her to live very long without it and expect her to pass away within a  couple of hours. I don’t want to drag this out anymore, she has suffered enough. If for some reason she did survive they said she would have no more than a few weeks.

Last night I went home to be with my children and I talked to them one at a time. I told them how she would look with the tubes and all. I told them that there is no wrong choice and if they wanted to go see mom. I explained that this would be a goodbye. Brandi doesn’t want to see her, she made a recording for her and a giant card. Jaymi and Robbie want to see her again, Robbie was very upset when I explained that Mommy was going to die and I had to hold him for a long time. The children are tired to, they told me they are sick of this cancer thing, they have no friends or fun anymore. I’m going to change that.

For those of you that know Teresa and her strong faith, you know that she has no problem knowing where she is going. Jesus at this very moment is holding her and comforting her. In a conversation her and I had a couple of weeks ago she said that she was upset that she is leaving me and the kids and how much we need her. I told her I understand and not to worry because you know how good of a cook you helped make me. That got her to laugh.

Pray for all of us and for Teresa to have peace in her last moments.

God Bless you all.

Daniel