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Day 69. I want to write: Day 1825. That is five years worth of Day’s. Five years is what “they” say is the safe period. One day I will write “Day 1825″ and that day will be spectacular.

I will do it.

I didn’t post yesterday’s entry until this afternoon. I didn’t feel all that great yesterday. I am not sure if it was just the third day of treatment (I didn’t feel well last Wednesday either) or maybe the bolus day treatment. Or maybe just the Fibromyalgia just saying “enough.” I was tired and nauseous.

I talked with my nurse BB about it today. She gave me a list of foods to stay away from that might help with the nausea, but the fatigue I will just have to deal with. Especially if I am to follow the “no caffeine” rule for better digestion. I think I might have to test that rule out for a while. I may not be able to speak “coffee” but I do know how to say “gimme my coffee, now!”

BB also gave me a prescription cream to apply to the scar from my first surgery. The skin over the scar is starting to breakdown from the radiation. Because of the location of the tumor just under the skin, the entire area will soon have such breakdown. I have had some sunburns in my life, but never on my backside!

Tomorrow I get to go home again. I get to hug my little ones. I get to hear all the funny things my kids say. Like last Sunday: we sat down for dinner and I noticed that Brandi had a bruise on her forehead. “Robbie hit me with his head!”

“Why did you head butt your sister?”

“I didn’t mean it! I was trying to hug her! I must have had too much Love in my hug!”

I lost it! Too much Love in a Hug! Can that be possible? Like too much cheese on your pizza, or too much chocolate chips on your cookie. There is just no such thing as too much “Love in your Hug.”

I need those funny things they say. Maybe we’ll dance again. Maybe we’ll kick our feet in the river. Maybe we’ll go for a walk. Maybe we’ll just sit on the porch and look at each other. Ya, maybe.

Maybe tomorrow.

By the way, I hope you have just the right amount of love in your hugs today.